Perfect Strings (A Star)

I can't sleep
My head is pounding
I can't stop thinking
Everything's going wrong
God bless me so this headache will go away and I can sleep
It's no use
Tear slicked eyes
My mind reminds me of everything going wrong
I can't stop thinking
Running through scenarios
And memories
And none of them happy


My head is pounding
My heart is pounding
It hurts
Have you ever felt that?
Something hurts so much you feel it in your heart
Not only that you feel it in your bones
Your breath gets shaky
You can't stop moving or you can't move
You're frozen or jittery
You can't stop thinking while your head is pounding
And it never stops

When will people realize that when they say something it could stick with you for the rest of your life
You messed up
You're not enough
Speak up
Your daughter talks to much
She's smart
But not a good test taker
You don't have anxiety
Those cuts on your wrists won't help
Stop asking for attention
SPEAK UP
YOU NEED TO COVER UP
ONE MORE BUTTON UP
YOU DON'T WANT THEM TO THINK YOU'RE ASKING FOR IT
CARRY MACE OR A KNIFE
KNOW HOW TO PROTECT YOURSELF

If you were taken they'd bring you back
If you were prettier they would like you
If you kept your mouth shut they would like you
If you straightened your hair more often they would like you
But you have to like yourself before anyone else likes you

How the HELL am I supposed to do that now?